simple things

ugh
i was sure feeling down as i left the co-op this morning
mondays are always hard
after spending the weekend all together...
Maya is not prone to being dropped off.
plus i was on my own for drop off this morning
i had gotten pretty used to having Jen and Finley around too...

i just felt deflated
plus i could see in my shadow that i had crazy new baby bed head.

i think taking 2 hours to put Maya to bed last night,
worrying about her making all the adjustments, big sister, new class etc
and the fact that at one point last night when i went in to quell her cries
she said, "daddy, you were broken on the sidewalk and it scared me..."
(a nightmare i am not entirely comfortable with...)
are all working together to put me in funk...

i got the blues...

but...

there are little blessings all around;
when i got to work,
i was walking from my car to the office
and in among the rocks of the landscaping outside the office
was a cache of marvelous shimmering jewels.

tiny spiderwebs had captured the mornings dew
and kept it around long enough to catch the suns rays
putting on little spectacle
that i admired as i passed on my way to the office door.

It was one of those nice reminders the universe provides
that i should count my blessings...

Then i went into the office,
and within a half hour of being there,
had spilled coffee on my shirt
and stabbed myself in the hand with a pencil...

maybe this will help...